My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 603 I Love You, Shawn

Shawn was so familiar with the area that he didn't even need navigation to arrive at a nearby beach, which was

clean and secluded.

The sky was bright blue, the sea was crystal clear, and the sands were powdery white.

I followed Shawn out after he parked the car, and as soon as he opened the back door, Eins and Zwei dashed

toward the beach while chasing each other. Seeing how alive they were, I chuckled. "We seldom come back here,

and they rarely get a chance to be this relaxed."

"Yeah. You can't go into the water later."

I looked bewilderedly at him as he took our stuff out of the trunk. "Well, I didn't bring a swimsuit anyway, but why?"

"You can't be in the water for too long, given your injury."

"That was from centuries ago."

He said nothing more after that, only taking the picnic basket and tablecloth to the beach after removing his socks

and shoes. He first spread the cloth out and placed the basket on it before returning to the car to get a massive

white placemat to place beside the tablecloth.

On the other hand, I took my shoes off and traversed the warm, powdery sand while he returned to the car for the

last time to grab Eins and Zwei's ball and frisbee. Meanwhile, I pulled the bottle of red wine out and poured him a

glass.

Shawn threw the frisbee into the sea, and Eins and Zwei dashed toward the beach as though they had received a

command, then jumped into the sea to search for the frisbee without hesitation.

After throwing the frisbee, Shawn returned to my side and sipped on the red wine.

Following that, he leaned his head back and enjoyed the summer sun.

His chin was in the air, and his side profile was as sharp as ever. His raven-black hair was pushed back a little, and

he looked absolutely brilliant basking in the sun.

While I rested my head on his lap and lay in his arms, he rubbed his fingers on my cheek habitually in silence.

"Sunny," I called out to him softly, to which he replied with a deep hum. "Yes?"

That 'yes' seemed to have come from the depths of his voice box.

"The sun's warm and comfortable," I said, but my man said nothing in response.

Just then, Zwei came to Shawn with the frisbee in its mouth. It was careful not to step on the placemat as it wagged

its tail and sat obediently next to Shawn, awaiting his next command.

At that, Shawn ruffled its head, took the frisbee from its mouth, and chucked it further away.

"Kevin will be landing soon," Shawn said suddenly, making me sit up in surprise. "Aren't they supposed to arrive

tomorrow?"

"He came with the kids in advance. So, that leaves us two hours of alone time."

"In other words, we'll get to see the kids later."

Shawn hummed plainly while I lay back down on his lap. "Do you remember our first time?" he asked out of the

blue while playing gently with my head, and guess what? He asked with a completely straight face!

The incident from two years ago came to my mind just like that. At the time, he and I… Well, we weren't even a

thing yet. But I was drugged at the time, and he was the only one who could help me.

Guess where we were. Yes, by the freaking sea!

I realized at the time that I liked him, but he kept turning me down. He was incredibly aloof at the time and would

reject me impassively every time I confessed my love to him. The Shawn Xenos from that time was honestly

beyond lofty, but he still gave himself to me in the end.

My first time with him was by the sea when I was in a groggy state. Yet, I could still remember the joy I felt back

then to this day.

"Yeah, I was so worried you'd turn me down at the time," I said while reaching for his palm.

At that, he gazed at me; I could see the sliver of sadness in his eyes. "Do you want to do it again?" he asked softly

after a long pause.

"I…" I wanted to say yes, but I was too shy to express it.

Afar, Eins and Zwei were running back toward us with the frisbee in one of their mouths. Still, Shawn picked me up

and took us to the back of a large boulder. As he placed me into the water, he said, "That night, I kept deliberating

if I should just endure it or take you into my world."

The seawater was a little chilly, but I quickly got used to the temperature.

"You didn't turn me down that night."

He eventually gave in that night. However, we still weren't official after that, so I assumed he excluded me from his

world. Hence, I hid from him since.

One night, he leaned gracefully against the car while lighting a cigarette. His actions were incredibly alluring.

Following that, he stubbed the cigarette and asked me, "Since you want to be with me, are you ready?"

"Sorry?" I asked him at the time.

"Ray, I agree to be your boyfriend," he said with his impassive yet melodious voice.

Even now, the scene was still fresh in my head. I remember promising him urgently, "As long as you love me, I will

be yours for the rest of my life."

However, he said, "You don't need to promise me anything, Felix."

I was so hurt by his words at the time.

Then, he added, "I only see what's in front of me."

He didn't give a single damn about the future.

In actuality, Shawn was always clear about what he wanted. He was a guy who cherished the present very much.

"Yeah, you were bold, and you spoke audaciously. You kept challenging my limits with your words. Yet, you were so

scared of me… You're a very interesting girl, Ree. Though the heavens hadn't been kind to you, you still reached for

the sun. You were ever hopeful, even in the most desperate of times, always wishing to be loved."

"Is that why you eventually gave in?" I asked with a smile.

He shook his head, his voice music to my ears. "I'm Shawn Xenos, a man who never gives in to threats and gets

soft-hearted. Having lived for 27 years, I thought I was already impenetrable, but that night… My precious girl was

curled up into a tiny ball on the beach. She was tattered and completely devastated, yet her eyes shone brightly.

She called out to me, calling me Sunny and asking me to save her. Seeing that I did nothing, she then called me

Shawn Xenos. How could I continue saying no to a girl who was so disrespectful yet craved me? But when I decided

to give myself to you… Ree, you became mine from that day on. No matter how hesitant you'll be in the future, I

will find you, and I will bring you back to me."

At that, Shawn unbuckled his belt and cooed, "The biggest difference between me and everyone else is that I will

seize whatever I want. I always live in the moment."

He grabbed my wrist as the waves wet his hair, and I giggled while letting him enter me as he pleased.

The sky afar was truly blue, and the clouds were oh-so-white; it was incredibly beautiful, and I also felt incredibly

sweet.

The waves were also gentle, and the seawater was warm.

Meanwhile, Eins and Zwei were still chasing each other on the shore.

Everything seemed to be perfect and wonderful.

"I love you, Shawn."