My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 611 Hold Me, Shawn

I huddled in his arms and cried my eyes out. I didn't have the words to express the emotions that washed over me

now that I had regained what I thought I had lost.

"Yeah. I'm here."

He was here…

Nothing gave me more comfort than those words of his.

"You were unconscious the whole time last night," I wept.

"You must've been terrified."

Shawn gently stroked my head as he said tenderly, "Look at how red your eyes are. You must've cried all night,

right? I'm sorry. You were dragged into my world after all!"

The weight of his large hand made me feel safe. I leaned into his hand as I declared, "I'm not afraid! I'm not afraid

of getting dragged into anything with you! I love you, Shawn. I love you more than anyone else in the world. We've

gone through so much together. Our love far outweighs death! You've always made sacrifices for my sake. How

many men could love as deeply as you?"

I choked up. "E-Even Nicholas who loved me wouldn't risk his life for me the way you did, and without seeking

anything in return too! You're not the same. From the moment you came into my life, you've willingly risked your

life to protect me. S-So… Shawn, I'm not afraid of being dragged into your world. I'm not afraid to sacrifice my life

for you! I'm even more afraid of losing you!"

I clenched his shirt tighter as I continued crying. "I'm so scared that you'll leave before me, so no matter what

happens, you must stay alive! Promise me, Shawn. Promise me you'll stay alive for as long as I am and don't make

me go through all that pain and sorrow…"

Shawn was stunned by my outburst. It took him quite some time before he broke out into a soft smile. "Okay. I

know how you feel now, Ray. I'll stay alive. I won't let you be the one to feel the pain of losing me."

His voice was so warm and gentle. "I'm so sorry that I fainted and scared you last night. My baby must've been so

worried."

My tears started falling even harder.

"I'm so happy you're awake!"

It was ages before I finally stopped crying. Shawn couldn't help but laugh at me. "You're just like a little kitten."

"Don't tease me. What should we do now?"

All of a sudden, Shawn lifted his shirt. "You brought this too?"

"Yeah. I'm scared of the cold!" I blushed and quietly explained, "I always had the impression that Iceland was

extremely cold, so I brought a lot of heat packs."

"Iceland gets warmer from June onward. It rarely snows during that time, but the flight route we took…"

Shawn stood up and stared at the morning sun in the distance. "I'm afraid Waylen won't be able to find us so soon

and considering the situation we're in right now… Ray, we'll need to leave by ourselves."

"Where are we now?" I asked while still sitting on the ground.

"Up north. I'll lead us out of here, but it's going to be a long journey. Can you handle it, Ray?"

I got to my feet. "Yeah. I won't drag you down."

I refused to be a burden to him at a time like this!

Shawn clutched my hand. He looked a little pale. "It would've been fine if we just waited for Waylen to get here, but

since we don't have our phones, we don't have a GPS that'll help him locate us. I'm not used to sitting around and

waiting either. We'll have to rely on ourselves to get back to civilization."

"I have a GPS! My watch has a GPS. Anthony installed it for me. I'm sure he'll find us!"

"Yeah, but I don't ever sit around and wait to be rescued."

What if Anthony can't find us? He's right. We can't sit around and wait to be rescued! We can't rest our hopes on

someone else!

"We'll find our way back to civilization together."

I didn't know where we were or where to go from here, but I didn't need to. I just had to follow Shawn's lead.

Throughout the entire morning, we trekked for a total of four hours and I was at my limit, but I didn't want Shawn to

think that I was weighing him down.

Nevertheless, Shawn was an observant man. He could tell that my strength was waning, so at noon, he told me to

stay put and rest before heading off on his own.

When he came back, he sat down and said, "We'll head east in the afternoon and we'll stop once we find some

shelter."

I nodded. "Okay. I'll do whatever you say."

He chuckled. "You're very resilient. You haven't complained at all this morning. I nearly forgot that you're a

pampered woman who gets tired easily. You've surprised me, Ray!"

I smiled and said, "I don't want to weigh you down."

I didn't want him to worry about me during a time like this.

He stroked my head. "Thanks for being so strong."

I was taken aback. All at once, my heart filled with sorrow.

I had been relying on him so much, he was surprised that I could be strong too.

I hugged him and said quietly, "I should be the one thanking you." Thank you for always accepting me

unconditionally.

Shawn pulled me up. "Let's start moving again."

"How many days of walking will it take?" I asked.

"At least three days," Shawn answered, looking rather pale.

"Do you know where the nearest populated area is?" I asked.

"Yeah. When I was younger, they would often abandon me in some uninhabited place for survival training, so you

don't need to worry, Ray. To me, this is just an ordinary training session. I'll find us a safe place within four days."

"Is this the life you used to lead?" I exclaimed cheerfully.

"You could say that," he murmured.

"I'm happy that I can experience it with you, Sunny."

Shawn looked startled, but a moment later, he sighed. "You said that because you don't want me to feel bad. It's so

thoughtful of you."

All this while, I kept my spirits up and remained optimistic because I didn't want Shawn to worry. Plus, I didn't feel

depressed with him around.

As long as I was with him, I would never feel depressed regardless of the kind of life I led. I could accept all manner

of hardships and difficulties.

In the afternoon, we trudged along for about five hours. Shawn found a place with a large boulder that could

shelter us from the wind for the night. The temperature dropped at night, so he told me to use a heat pack before

going to sleep.

We were approaching grassland now, which meant we were no longer in a snowy area. All the snow had turned into

streams instead.

We'll surely find a human settlement if we keep walking for two more days!

At night, my tummy started rumbling. I glanced awkwardly at the man who was holding me.

He stood up and said, "I'll find us some food."

"I have food in my bag," I quickly said.

Shawn chuckled and asked, "What else did you bring?"

"I was worried that I'd be bored during the helicopter ride, so I brought some snacks and drinks. That's all. I didn't

bring anything else. These snacks should be enough to keep us full for two days, though we'll have to ration it

slowly."

That was why I forced myself to ignore my hunger pangs all day. I made myself forget about the snacks in my bag.

"You're so full of surprises," Shawn commented.

I pulled out a bun from my bag and held it out to Shawn, but he shook his head and said, "Go ahead and eat. I'll find

some other food nearby."

"What kind of food will you be able to find here?"

Shawn didn't answer.

"I'll wait for you here then," I said hesitantly.

Shawn nodded and left.

I wasn't afraid when he was here, but as soon as he left, I was so frightened that I quickly got up and tried to look

for him.

I walked around for over ten minutes before I found Shawn. He had taken his shirt off and I saw streaks of blood on

his chest.

No wonder he looked so pale the whole day. When did he get hurt? Was it during his fight with that man in the

helicopter?

I wanted to run over to him and help him bandage his wounds, but I didn't move because I knew he didn't want me

to worry.

Shawn bandaged himself up with great difficulty before grabbing something beside him. Soon, I was able to see

that it was a fish!

There was a stream nearby, so it wasn't surprising that he caught a fish.

Shawn used a small knife to descale the fish before rinsing it with water from the stream. Then, he cut the fish into

small slices and slowly munched on the fish meat.

He was frowning the whole time.

It's probably because it tastes horrible.

He was eating the fish raw, so of course, it would taste bad.

I turned around and walked back to the boulder with heavy steps. My heart was aching over his injury and the fact

that he was eating raw fish.

I knew he was eating raw fish because he wanted to save the food for me. He couldn't bear to let me suffer in any

way!

What about me? I can't help him at all! I'm so useless!

Twenty minutes later, Shawn came back to me. I pretended as if I didn't know anything as I asked, "Did you find any

food?"

He never lied to me, so he replied in all honesty, "Yeah. I had a fish. I feel a lot more energetic now after finishing it.

Why didn't you eat anything?"

I had tossed the bun aside.

"I was waiting to eat with you," I said sadly.

"I'm not hungry," he replied softly. "Do you feel cold?"

"Come and sit here, Sunny."

I opened a heat pack and stuck it on his abdomen. He didn't object, but he said, "Save the rest for yourself."

"Hold me, Shawn."

Shawn wrapped his arms around me.

"I won't feel cold if you hold me, so you can use the heat pack and I'll use you. Isn't it such a great idea?"