The Spare Wife by Nadia Gordon

Chapter 572 I Really Can't Accept It

Sean gazed at Abigail, feeling a heavy weight on his chest.

"Even if I were to accept you again and consider starting a family with you, I know that things can never go back to

how they were," she said. "I have given you my deepest emotions, and I don't believe! have wronged you. It was

you who ignored my true feelings during those three years. Now, you want to return to the past. Do you think that's

possible?"

He apologized. "I'm truly sorry."

want to fully accept you, but I can't. Everyone thinks that I can think through, let go, and move forward from the

wrongs that were done to me, but I can't understand why. I now realize that people are always entangled and filled

with grudges. I keep thinking about the wrongs each of you did to me. If I didn't care, tha would be the real sign

that I don't care about any you." Abigail rarely opened up about her inner thoughts to Sean, but she felt it was

necessary to clarify.

He watched her quietly, feeling like he was entering her heart for the first time.

"Just like I genuinely don't care about Old Mrs. Graham, so when I see her, I feel like she's just an ordinary stranger.

I've even started to forget her past actions toward me. It's because I still care about all of you that I keep obsessing,

keep recalling those unpleasant memories, and firmly hold them in my heart," she said with a bitter smile. "I care

deeply about everything. I'm not that generous."

Sean held Abigail's hand, his eyes slightly red. Then, he lowered his gaze and softly said. m sorry, Honey. I was truly

wrong.

She looked at him and smiled gently. "I really don't want to let go... I know Grandma was right, but I can't accept it. I

don't know the solution, so I agonize over it."

Abigail often found hers If lost in thought during late nights. If she hadn't cared for Sean. she might not have felt

dhe pang of sadness seeing him risk his life for Luna. This incident became a turning poi it in their emotional

conflict. It led her to give him another chance seeking a reason to reconcile with him, to find peace from the pain of

the past he had ca Yet, despite these efforts, she found herself in inner conflict, still not having fully accepted. him.

There were times when she wished he would experience the same pain she had endured-a desi she deeply

despised in herself.

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gail realized that she had indeed accepted Sean, yet a part of her still beld completely moved on from the scars of

their failed mar Las long as he of her life, there lingered a fear of facing the same hurt one

not be an easy fix because pain is not easily erased. He clasped her hand flyg But hearing what you've shared

brings me joy. It's taught me the importance of Leine

mindful not to hurt those who care for us. I now understand that if I'm fortunate enough to have you back, I need to

remember the pain I've caused and tread carefully to avoid hurting you again in the future."

She was a little surprised by his words.

He looked at her with teary eyes and said again, "I'm sorry."

sean, did you ever love me when you married me?" Abigail asked Sean candidly, looking in his eyes.

I didn't care for you, I would have made every effort to avoid marrying you. Neven it's beyond the point of return

now. My past indifference towards you was a result of my immaturity, I was under the impression hayot were only

with me to fulfill Old Mrs. Quinn's desire for grandchildren and to ensure her peace of mind, as you are extremely

respectfu! istakenly believed that you were willing to do so," he expressed.

She smiled: "So, you thought I was very obedient, right?"

less.

Abigail and Sean had never been completely honest with each other... If there had been a little more honesty from

both sides, it wouldn't have ended in divorce.

He nodded. "Back then, you really were very obedient. You would agree to whatever my grandmother said. Even if

it was unreasonable, you would still do it. You took all of Old Mrs. Quinn's words to heart."

She leaned back in her chair and sighed softly. "I was immature, too."

"In this past year, you've learned to be yourself. You now tell me that you can't fully accept me and don't trust me.

I'm pretty happy about that. At least I still have some usefulness, right?" Sean reassured himself.

Abigail thought that he was right.

"Have you rested enough? If you have, let's go back then," he said even though he felt a mix of emotions after he

ring her candid words.

"Almost," she said. She felt much more at ease after sharing her feelings with him. She no longer had to dwell on

these messy thoughts on her own.

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hand and helped her up. As they walked back, he said, "I'm genuinely hared these things with me. It's helped me

understand my mistakes, and i n't forgiver, me yet.

She puri hend to lock at him. "Sean."

"Yes?" He instinct dyked at her.

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ou return to re brings me great joy," she expressed, a serene smile dancing in her

pes. It signified her success, having not fallen short of her expectations.